Pandemic Ponderings: Journal Entries

April 2022

The heart is burdened, the mind - boggled.

The eyes and ears can't believe the horror that they are made to see and hear. 

The body is tense, ready to defend itself against a sudden, suffocating attack.

The spirit is weak.

The lips can only muster a silent prayer, for people both known and unknown.

The chest heaves with every sigh.

The tears fall.

The entire being feels drained; sucked of strength and happiness.

And yet, against all odds, it waits...for a ray of light, for a day of redemption, for that message of revival.

For hope, for humanity.

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May 2021

I know, a lot has changed since the pandemic and everything around us seems to be falling apart.

We've lost loved ones and, along with them, a piece of our own heart.

Yes, I know, it's impossible to imagine that life will ever be the same again - it won't.

But, yesterday...

After a long dry spell, it rained again.

The insect-infested plant in our  garden recovered and bloomed again.

The birds that built their nest last year in our balcony returned to lay eggs again. 

Somehow, this gives me hope that the world will heal again.

And we will experience joy again.

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